Day One.

yeah, I'm finally getting to the tag :P

1. Of all the people, I miss you the most. And I wish I could know you were in the place you deserve to be. And I'm so scared that I won't have you waiting for me when my time's up. I want so badly for you to come screaming at me for quitting ballet. I want you to tell me, "Come here, and let Mummy sayang you." I miss you so so much. I'm sorry I never told you this, but thank you for being so strong. You make me wanna be better, and live my life better. I hope you're watching from heaven, and that someday, I can make you proud of me. I love you. ♥


2. I never told you, but you shaped my life. The most influential man of my life, aside from my dad. You've always known I looked up to you as a kid, but I don't think you know how much I still absolutely adore you. You're so important to me, and I'll always hope that someday, I'll be important to you too. ♥

3.. and 4. Darlings (and from the moment I said that you know I'm talking to you), I have so much to say to you two. But I'll save it for my love letters ;) I'll just say that I love you guys, and we better not drift apart next year. ♥

5. Most of the time, I love you and think you're the silliest sweet girl ever. But at the moment, I can't tahan you and the way you act. Drop the bitchiness, then talk to me. Because if you're rude to me, or to my friend in front of me, don't be surprised if I give you one tight slap. ♥


6. I know I love someone when I ask myself whether I'm willing to sacrifice my own happiness for theirs. Because I believe that's what people are willing to do when they love somebody. I love you, and I hope we last, but I won't compromise myself for you again. You mean alot to me. So please, don't disappoint me. ♥


7. You disgust me. I respected you so much, but you threw that all away because you were rejected. All your self-respect, All your dignity. A lifetime of discipline. Thrown away like trash because a girl didn't pick you. And when you threw that away, you also threw away every ounce of respect I had for you. There was so much to admire about you. You were chivalrous, and respected your family and your beliefs, and sweet, and kind. But now that's all just wasted. You're now ridiculously stupid, incredibly insensitive, and I hope your parents never find out about what you do behind their back.Because they would be so disappointed. I certainly was. You suck. ♥


8. We were bestfriends as kids, and eventhough sometimes I got really annoyed with you, I'd look at pictures of us and think, "I hope we'll be friends for the rest of our lives." And I really regret that loss, because you were my first girlbestfriend. And for the longest time, I had a great deal of respect for you. But people change. We obviously have. So today, I don't know if you don't like me, or are just plain bitchy, but you're a complete stranger. I won't miss you. But that little girl I used to play barbiedolls with, who was my bestfriend for two years, who's present in so many of my sweet, childhood memories, I'll miss that girl for a long time to come. And I hope she has a great life ahead of her. ♥

9. To my first bestfriend ever, we've grown up without each other, but I've thought about you, and the times we've had together, alot, and I think you have too. I've missed you so much, and I was so happy to see your message on facebook. I can't wait to reconnect with you. We may never be as close as we used to be, but we'll always have that bond we built when we spent the first years of our lives together. And I'm so thankful for that. ♥


10. I hope you're growing, and learning, just as I am. One day, we'll be ready for each other, and that time comes, the love we'll have will be nothing short of epic. ♥